Welcome to The Way Everlasting Podcast. Messages from J.S. Park. Find me at facebook.com/pastorjspark or jsparkblog.com or jspark3000.tumblr.com
The Impossible Sermon: Why We Fail to Change (and How We Can Finally Transform)

Matthew 5-7. How Christianity painfully breaks us open and puts us back together. CCF Retreat 1 of 4. "A meta-deconstruction of the Sunday sermon and inspirational TED Talks, overly obvious photoshopped Instagram pictures, the inherent weakness of marriage lessons, how Christianity is less Lord of the Rings and more Breaking Bad, two false solutions from the church on How-to-Change, the terrifying glory of the Sermon on the Mount (and two clues in the sermon about how to follow it), and how a nine-year-old Tae Kwon Do student totally schooled me on the Gospel." 11-4-16

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Basic_1_-_Sermon_Mount_11-4-16.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 10:31pm EST

A Gritty Gracious Community of Surgical Accountability

Matthew 7 and 18. About judging, rebuke, why we go to church, and confronting your friend with the truth. CCF Retreat 2 of 4. "That secret low-key grudge-hate against a fellow church member, the extremely painful (and necessary) peeling of accountability, the danger of isolating ourselves by echoing yes-men and self-affirming flattery, Jesus's graphic pictures of digging in your eyeball, the weird crazy arranged marriage of church, and four phrases we can use daily to heal one another." 11-5-16

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Basic_2_-_Accountability_11-5-16.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 10:27pm EST

What We Need To Persevere Through the Desert Valley

Matthew 17. Our rest and resolve through demands and darkness. CCF Retreat 3 of 4. "The two things I hear on every deathbed in the hospital, how over 700 people answered the question, 'What is the greatest universal human desire?', how Jesus answers our marriage proposal, when we can finally stop being crushed by demands and deadlines, how faith is like a long-distance relationship, how God solves for both our lukewarmness and legalism, Seven Powerful Truths if the Gospel is True, and the Gospel according to Han Solo." 11-5-16

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Basic_3_-_Rest_Resolve_11-5-16.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 10:23pm EST

One Author, One Story, One Purpose in Every Room

John 1. How to live our faith authentically in the real world. CCF Retreat 4 of 4. "The time I overheard a couple have the most dramatic break-up ever, what flirtation and 'romantic chemistry' is really about, the problem with trying to be the protagonist of your own story, seeing your name in the dedication section of a book, and the one question that every Christian can ask ourselves in every room we enter." 11-6-16

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Basic_4_-_Story_11-6-16.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 10:19pm EST

The Truths and Myths of Christian Dating and Relationships

A seminar that I gave in San Jose, CA about the truths and myths of dating & relationships within both the church-culture & pop-culture. 2 Timothy 2. "The time I overheard a couple have their final knock-down drag-out fight, my absolutely favorite type of scene in the movies, what everyone really wants in the hospital, dating theology from Taylor Swift, when God looks at you through the ceiling, and Christianity according to a cologne sample." December 27th, 2015

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Dating_Seminar_CA_12-27-15.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 7:33pm EST

Q&A on Relationships, Dating, and Faith

Q&A in San Jose, CA about dating, celibacy, self-forgiveness, finding "the one," and a renewed community. December 27th, 2015

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Dating_Questions_CA_12-27-.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:00pm EST

The Reckless, Relentless, Sloppy Grace of God: The Church That Jesus Had In Mind

Acts 2:42-47. Preached at CCF in Gainesville, FL. On the difficult messy work of giving grace. "My time at the mental institution with drug addicts and sex addicts and recovering mental patients, the awkward harrowing nerve-racking experience of bringing your friend to church (and it happens to be sacrifice-a-live-animal day), the cringe-inducing moment when the preacher goes political, finding out what percentage of the church is actually God's intention, the recent trend of movies where bad guys are not really bad but have a tragic back-story, what saying 'I do' really means, that time I fought a pastor in a parking lot, and sculpting a real eye-to-eye face-to-face friendship over coffee." 7-18-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Reckless_Grace_CCF_7-18-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 3:30pm EST

Our Deepest Eternal Need: The Worthiness of Pure Face-Melting Glory

John 3:30. Preached at CCF in Gainesville. About our itchy eternal longing for heart-swelling value and worthiness. "My first audition for a TV show, the secret second language we use to fight for attention in every room, our crazy scrambling for a social media fanbase, when we become demon-possessed in rush hour traffic, our Main Character Syndrome, what I plan to do at my kid's first junior football game, and the absolutely face-melting moment when Jesus returns with a flaming sword ripping the sky open." 7-31-15

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Worthiness_of_Glory_7-31-1.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 3:00pm EST

The Two Words We Want Least But Need the Most

Mark 4. Two words that we quickly avoid but desperately need for growth, healing, and wholeness, for our relationships, churches, politics, and faith. "When you see someone else's kid misbehaving in public, the most unappealing things about Christianity for Christians, thinking the sermon is for the guy in the next row, tracing the theme of water and chaos through ancient history and Scripture, and how Jesus's war cry obliterated our worldly warfare." 3-6-16

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Repentance_Authority_3-6-16.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:30pm EST

It's (Spiritual) War: The Two Voices We Battle Within

Ephesians 6. The battlefield of spiritual warfare: fighting two equally destructive voices. "Fluctuating between our biggest daydreams and our worst fears, four of the devil's most common strategies to destroy us, when conspiracy theories are real, the problem of polarized opinion and shutting down all dissenting opinions, exposing the rigged carnival games, and how to fully finally beat the devil for good." 6-12-16

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Spiritual_Warfare_6-12-16.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:30pm EST

Holiness, Humility, and How to Give Your Life Away

Isaiah 6. How the holiness of God irrevocably changes us in two ground-shaking ways. "The two things I hear at every deathbed in the hospital, my body's crazy involuntary response when I flew over the Grand Canyon, every instance of the Bible characters seeing God and falling over crying, the unseen thankless art of raising children, how to live generously with zero guarantees, and a letter from Belize." 3-20-16

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Holiness_Humility_3-20-16.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:00pm EST

From Mountain High to Valley Low: Finding an Oasis in the Darkest Desert

1 Kings 18-19. The story of Elijah. Through discouragement, distress, and depression: how God speaks to us and how we speak to one another. As a lifelong sufferer of depression, this is hugely personal for me. "The sudden mental replay in the shower and the late-night regret twitch, the one common denial from every patient in the hospital, when you just need a hamburger and a really long nap, the hidden fear of men getting honest, the panic moment when someone sees your text messages and photos, how Yoda finally got through to Luke Skywalker, and Elijah versus depression versus the world." 4-17-16

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Elijah_4-17-16.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 1:30pm EST

Writing Them In Instead of Writing Them Off: A Grand Vision of Saul to Paul

Acts 9. How killer Saul became Apostle Paul and got his first unlikely roommate, the disciple Ananias. "Adopting my abused dog Rosco and rehabilitating him, how an African-American musician befriended and changed a KKK leader, why I agree with the Elder Brother against the Prodigal Son, the impossibility of outgrowing your nickname and time-stamped hometown past, the one frustrating difficult person that never changes, how the back-row of punk kids at church completely humbled me, and the freedom of finally becoming the kind of person that loves no matter what." 4-24-16

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Ananias_Saul_Vision_4-24-16.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:00pm EST

Rest and Resolve: What Gets Us Through Deadlines, Demands, and Disorder

Matthew 17. When we're crushed by deadlines, demands, and disorder, we need both the rest and resolve to get through. "That moment of exhaustion when you sigh for a long time before you walk through the door, the burn-out check-out from school and marriage and career, the strange beauty of enjoying something you can't pay for with nothing to offer, the greatest miracle Jesus ever pulled, faith as a long-distance relationship, a word for both perfectionists and slackers, and the one crucial question they ask you at a car accident." 7-17-16

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Rest_Resolve_7-7-16.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 1:24am EST

The Surgical, Sculpting, Saving Power of Grace

Romans 7-8. Everyone's talking about change, but we never quite live up to who we want to be. How can we be more than inspired, but actually different? "Our national obsession with motivational inspirational speeches and rallies and TED Talks, that crazy thing inside us prevents our hands and heart from doing the right thing, Paul's public takedown of Peter's racism, how we secretly keep a judgmental score on one another, the biggest difference between romantic dating and everyday marriage, and how the adopting love of God will dismantle the ugly divisions of race, class, gender, and superiority." 7-10-16

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Romans_7-8_7-10-16.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 3:21pm EST

Walking Through Fire and Waiting on God (For a Fire Hose)

Jeremiah 29. Exploring one of the most misinterpreted passages in the Bible about pain and perseverance. "The after-wedding shock of discovering your spouse is a stranger, when you take a test with lowered expectations to feel good about a bad grade, how 200 respondents answered whether Depression was a Choice or a Disease, life lessons from a tough plucky foster kid, and enduring the Saturday between the Cross and Resurrection." 6-26-16

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Jeremiah_Plans_6-26-16.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 10:25am EST

Friday / Saturday / Sunday

A Spoken Word performance, aka that one time the pastor rapped his sermon. A modern re-telling about the three fateful days of Jesus' crucifixion and resurrection, and how the chaos of the cross turned into beautiful death-defying glory. (Audio clip by Gungor, "We Will Run") 12-8-13

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Fri_Sat_Sun_12-8-13.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:48am EST

How Christianity Breaks Us Open and Painfully Puts Us Back Together

Romans 7-8. A message preached to Yale students about the relevance and reason of Christianity. Part 1 of 3: How the Gospel uniquely differs from every other kind of motivation.

"A meta-deconstruction of the Sunday church service, how to bomb a TEDTalk, the last two things I hear from dying patients in the hospital, the haunting of l’esprit de l’escalier, de-romanticizing adoption, the list of my flaws I gave to my wife before we started dating, and how a nine-year-old showed me the heart of Christianity." 1-30-16

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Yale_01_Christianity_1-30-16.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:00am EST

The Eternal Itchy Longing Within Us: Jesus Is Complete Fulfillment

Luke 15. A message preached to Yale students about the relevance and reason of Christianity. Part 2 of 3: How the Gospel solves for two universal human problems and the greatest human need.

"How to tell an alien about the human race, conclusions about humanity after a survey with 700 replies, the instant anxiety when you walk into a crowded room, the itchy self-conscious moment when someone is slightly more talented at 'my thing,' that loopy moment at night with your best friend when you start confessing everything, two universal human problems and our greatest human need, and the absolutely most important linchpin verse in the Bible." 1-30-16

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Yale_02_Prodigal_Son_1-30-16.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 5:00am EST

Where We Come From and Where We're Going: Red Sea to Redeemed & Free

Exodus 14, 20. A message preached to Yale students about the relevance and reason of Christianity. Part 3 of 3: How the Gospel compels us into action, neither by guilt nor religion, but deliverance.

"How long it actually should've taken the Israelites to get to Canaan from Egypt (not forty years), the moment right after the wedding, how the grace of my first pastor completely tenderized and galvanized me, the Christian life beyond 'overcoming-sin,' and seeing God in the Philippines and a homeless shelter." 1-31-16

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Yale_03_Red_Sea_1-31-16.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 4:00am EST

"On Fire For God" - The Mountaintop We're All Climbing For

Mark 9. The Transfiguration. Preached in Gainesville, FL. What it really means to be "on fire for God" and how to endure the dry desert valley. "Walking with kids and pigs through huts on the islands of the Philippines, the moment when Jesus dropped his flesh-suit and flexed his total divine glory with laserbeams out his mouth, how long-distance dating is like faith, and finding God in the homeless shelter." 10-25-15

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Mountaintop_Climb_10-25-15.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 4:49pm EST

Why Do We Even Go To Church? - That Crazy, Messy, Weird Thing We Call The Body of Christ

Mark 16:13-19. The church can be crazy: but she is still God's idea to be a force for good in the world. "That very nervous moment when you bring a friend to church and you see the weirdness of Sunday service,  how I reply when someone tells me that the church is full of hypocrites, how the friction of colliding with our disagreements can turn us into fully polished people, that time a church lady hit my car in the parking lot and ran, and my very first pastor loving me from hateful atheism to unexpected faith." 8-17-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Why_Church_8-17-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:00pm EST

Jeremiah 29:11, The Most Misquoted Verse of Scripture: God Has A Plan To Put You Through Fire

Jeremiah 29:11. When God says He won't harm you, that's a weird way to start a promise. "Finding Jesus for three easy payments of $9.99, the mathematical impossibility of soulmates, the surprising difficulty of planning for a wedding, fighting against our natural inclination to fight against God, how martial arts teaches us about reacting to the trials of life, and how every Unresolved Tension will meet Happily Ever After." 4-25-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Jeremiah_29_4-25-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 11:48am EST

Mad About God - I Don't Have It All Figured Out Yet / Perpetually Skeptical

An audio preview of my book "Mad About God: When We Over-Spiritualize Pain and Turn Tragedy Into a Lesson," about persevering through pain and suffering.

Preface 1 - I Don't Have It All Figured Out, and That's Okay
Preface 2 - Perpetually Skeptical: Screaming Through The Red Sea

Preface 1 is about our crazy need to connect pain with a lesson.
Preface 2 is about the constant, uncomfortable doubts about the existence and goodness of God.


Direct download: JS_Park_-_Mad_About_God_3-5-15.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 11:46am EST

Elijah, Man On Fire: The Crazy Up-and-Down Journey We Call Life

1 Kings 18-19. Series: Snapshots: Men & Women of the Bible. Part 1. Facing the up-and-down craziness of life. "That one time I went to audition for a show on Nickelodeon when I was seven, that discouraging word that sticks in your brain all week, those giddy midnight conversations when you expose your crazy self (and regret it in the morning), preparing a speech in case your marriage proposal is answered with 'no,' when all you really need is a nap, and the mind-blowing reveal that someone has been praying for you the whole time." 5-25-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_MW_Bible_01_-_Elijah_5-25-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 11:45am EST

Joseph The Hopeless Dreamer: Perseverance In The Pain, From Pit to Prison to Palace

Genesis 37-50. Series: Snapshots: Men & Women of the Bible. Part 7. Persevering through pain. "How to read a book in ten seconds (by turning to the first and last page of the book), how painful moments always become the best stories but never in the moment, that time my dad was nearly executed by firing squad in the Vietnam War, the awful cliches that spiritualize pain into lessons, the vivid wild wonderfully heartbreaking tale of Joseph and his brothers, the single linchpin verse that brings together the whole Bible, and how to put down the baggage of an old hurt in your next season of life." 8-8-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_MW_Bible_07_-_Joseph_8-8-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 11:44am EST

Gideon The Unworthy: God Has Given You Worth Apart From What You Think About You

Judges 6-7. Series: Snapshots: Men & Women of the Bible. Part 5. God calls you who you could be, into greatness by His grace. "Outlandish auction bids for celebrity-owned items including Justin Bieber's hair, my brother the totally unsuspecting MMA jujitsu fighter, the anxious fear of small-town gossip when you try to step it up, tough advice for my future daughter, how the church ought to be like a bunch of cheerleaders, my first pre-marriage counseling, and the words that you've secretly wanted to hear your whole life." 7-13-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_MW_Bible_05_-_Gideon_7-13-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 11:44am EST

The Sloppy Truth of Discipleship

Matthew 28:18-20. Preached in Huntsville, Alabama. Making disciples is messy. "When Jesus uppercuts drug addicts, the hyper-spiritual attitude in the awkward Bible study, that time I was Baker Act'ed and put in the mental hospital, and what separates the church from every other place in the world." 5-12-13

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Discipleship_5-12-13.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:04pm EST

The Art of Preaching To Yourself: Fighting Your Pride and Your Pain

Psalm 42:1-5. Guest sermon at Refuge Full Gospel. How to handle the constant loop of your inner-voice. "My ultimate social fantasy daydream when I run for political office, growing up in the same town with the same labels, imagining that back room of rumors about you, the epidemic called Main Character Syndrome, when you crush someone with a false hologram version of them, and when God replaces your lungs." 11-15-13

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Preach_To_Yourself_11-15-13.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:02pm EST

When You Meet God Actually

John 15. We tend to do Christian things around God but not with Him. "When the preacher says 'don’t be like' that one evil terrible guy Bill, how to know for sure you've instantly encountered the face-melting presence of God, how I found Jesus at a homeless ministry, and the icky moment after you confess all your weird stuff to your friend." 12-20-13

Direct download: JS_Park_-_When_You_Meet_God_Actually_12-20-13.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 7:26pm EST

The Itchy Icky Gap: Between Who We Are and Who We Want To Be

1 John 3. That impossible itch of trying to be better than we are. "When you get older and your body stops listening to your brain, when you think you've made spiritual progress but then you cuss out someone in traffic, that slobbery screaming moment on the phone when you vent everything, how far you'd go for a million dollars, and the crazy anxious fear of raising a human baby." 11-19-13

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Gap_11-19-13.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 7:26pm EST

As For Me: One of the Most Important Throwaway Phrases of Scripture


Psalm 73, Joshua 24:15. To be a countercultural force for the common good. "The increasingly halfway lazy sloppiness of cutting corners in our non-committed culture, playing around with the numbers on our tax returns, when it looks like cheaters and troublemakers are more successful than honest upstanding citizens, fighting against the mob mentality of gossip, and the 3% rule of changing the world." 3-7-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_As_For_Me_3-7-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 7:25pm EST

A Life of Action Vs. Reaction: Breaking the Cycle With the Violence of Grace

Philippians 2:1-11. Preached at Reach: Session in NJ. Breaking the reactionary cycle of retaliation with the heart-stopping power from above. "Growing up with a 9th degree black belt 2nd lieutenant father, the one weird Sunday you decide to bring a friend to church, passing on a torch of hurt or healing, starting over with an enemy, and a word to those who have checked out." May 1st, 2015

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Reach_NJ_5-1-15.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 4:01pm EST

Interview with Pursuit NYC

An interview with Sam Won of Pusuit NYC while I was in NJ to speak at a revival.

We talk about finding a safe space of honesty in the church, the journey from atheism to faith, the pitfalls of blogging & going viral, how to toil behind the scenes, and how I’ve been connecting with God lately.

Direct download: nRycROBPtkn5.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 3:36pm EST

You Are More Than Your Drama: You Were Made For A Story

Colossians 3:2. Keeping above the drama, eyes on the mission. "Overhearing a woman catch her boyfriend cheating with another woman in my apartment complex, watching a TV show and yelling at all the dumb decisions they make, our first reaction if God were to rip the roof off your house and make eye contact with you, those O.G. 1st century Christians rebelling against the Roman Empire, getting pulled into the vortex of crazy yelling ugly cry-face drama, and the most hardcore gangster preacher of all time." 5-9-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Set_Your_Mind_5-9-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:00pm EST

Christianese Dating: The Adventure of Dating and The Reality of Relationships

A seminar on dating and relationships given to a wonderful ministry of college students and young adults in Gainesville FL. Some of the content is from my new book on relationships called The Christianese Dating Culture.

Some things I talk about are: The romantic theology of Taylor Swift, that time I overheard a girlfriend catching her boyfriend with another woman, two soldiers at war gossiping about the Kardashians, the best Christian pick-up line ever, the gritty raw painful sweaty work of theater actors and ballerinas, the difference between "Saving Private Ryan" and "The Hurt Locker," three directions that every relationship takes, if my fiancé gained 200 lbs, the scary anxious fear of marriage proposal and possibly hearing "Nope," and a Q&A Session including the truth about "wives submitting" and how to find "The One."


Direct download: JS_Park_-_Dating_Relationships_11-8-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:00pm EST

Grace Is Not Easy or Romantic: The Gritty Grinding Gears Of Grace

1 Corinthians 13, Mark 15. The difficult gut-wrencing power of grace. "That one time I saw a cop chasing a half-naked man in the middle of the street at night, the icky feeling of constantly defending yourself around nitpicky people, the one tiny innocuous statement your pastor makes in a sermon that makes you leave the church, that awful stomach sickness when you know someone hates your guts, and how God sees two tiny people on earth finally reconciling." 5-23-14


Direct download: JS_Park_-_Grace_5-23-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:00pm EST

Our Story, Carved of Grace and Glory: What It Means To Glorify God, The Most Important Purpose of our Lives

John 3:30. Breaking down the phrase glorifying God, and why it's the most important thing we could do with our lives. "Our Christianese church-language that we never question, when you walk into a crowded room and you suddenly hear the desperate clawing fight for validation, the Main Character Syndrome when we treat everyone like supporting props for the Movie of Me, the insane frothing monster we become in rush hour traffic, the overarching meta-narrative of the Bible in one rushing swoop, how to anonymously donate a kidney, and when Jesus finally returns with 100 million angels at the final conclusion of the universe." 8-10-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Glory_of_God_8-10-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:00pm EST

The Life of David, Part 7 - Breaking Free of the Idols That Break Us

1 Kings 11:1-13. Series: Life of David. Part 7. Idolatry, addiction, and freedom. "The unfortunate trashy creepiness of singing competitions, when Asians hate other Asians of a different Asian nation, Four Types of Idols that enslave us, when I find out someone doesn't like me, that moment the preacher tells you to throw away all your stuff, and the only true heart surgery that breaks free of addiction into victory." 2-23-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_David_7_-_Idols_2-23-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:12pm EST

The Life of David, Part 6 - The Unappreciated Ordinary Everyday Grind of Life

1 Kings 2:1-12. Series: Life of David. Part 6. Staying faithful in the everyday ordinary grind of life. "The last secret technique of a dying karate master on his deathbed, when a gigantic six-foot twelve-year-old jock protected me in sixth grade, how Barney the dinosaur saved my next door neighbors, how Chaos Theory and the butterfly effect reveals the tapestry of God's Story in the world, and how a mean internet comment drove me to a slobbery broken down mess." 2-16-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_David_6_-_Faithful_2-16-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 9:08pm EST

The Life of David, Part 5 - An Honest Ugly Confrontation With Yourself

2 Samuel 11-12. Series: Life of David. Part 5. Breaking free requires an ugly honesty. "Getting stabbed without knowing it, exposing rigged carnival games, that one time I was cured by Cuban food, when a girl is convinced she really loves that guy, and creating a culture of slobbery honesty in church." 2-9-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_David_5_-_Honesty_2-9-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:52pm EST

The Life of David, Part 4 - Your Life Is Preaching A Message

1 Samuel 24, 26. Series: Life of David. Part 4. Your small everyday decisions preach a bigger story. "How a man with cancer will stay in touch with her daughter through her lunchbox, what you think of when you hear Steve Jobs, Adolf Hitler, and Superman, the best movie quote of all time from Gladiator, David's bedtime stories with Solomon, and when someone seems like they're succeeding without God." 2-2-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_David_4_-_Life_Sentence_2-2-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 9:56pm EST

The Life of David, Part 3 - I Am Second Place: About Friendship

1 Samuel 23. Series: Life of David. Part 3. What God says about friendship. "When your friend plays a song for you right in front of you with all the awkward eye contact, Four Cornerstones of a Foundation for Friendship, spreading false rumors about an itchy butt, when your friend tells a story again for the fiftieth time, and punching jealousy in the face." 1-26-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_David_3_-_Friendship_1-26-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:00pm EST

The Life of David, Part 2 - How the Weapon of Grace Conquered Goliath

1 Samuel 17. Series: Life of David. Part 2. Human Warfare versus Weapons of Grace. "Why everyone loves the underdog, Ip Man multi-punches Goliath, your natural instinctual reaction when someone slaps you in the face, the way we assume the life of a homeless guy, and the Real Giant in this story (it's not Goliath)." 1-19-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_David_2_-_Goliath_1-19-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 1:41pm EST

The Life of David, Part 1 - Everything Great In You Is God In You

1 Samuel 16:7. Series: Life of David. Part 1. You might feel like a nobody: and that's a good thing. "If you were to grade yourself on a scale of 1 to 100, how three judges at a beauty pageant can destroy the dreams of women, an awkward interview with the young King David, trying to show up your high school bullies at a talk show, and the beautiful sound of a really terrible praise team." 1-12-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_David_1_-_Great_God_1-12-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:34pm EST

Before The L-Word, Let's Talk About The F-Word: Love, Faith, and Purpose

2 Timothy 2:22. Preached at Refuge Full Gospel. About dating, relationships, and matters more important. "Before the dating talk: a prayer for Ferguson and Iraq and Israel and Robin Williams; the mistake we make when we focus on the methods & techniques of Christian dating, the way we hyper-romanticize mission trips and marriage, important questions to ask before pursuing our feelings and emotions, theological wisdom from Taylor Swift, how to share oxygen when you're drowning underwater, and going after the absolute greatest adventure of our lives together." 8-15-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Dating_and_Purpose_8-15-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 4:01pm EST

Leah, The Unloved: Breaking The Prison of People-Pleasing & Codependency

Genesis 29. Series: Snapshots: Men & Women of the Bible. Part 6. Freedom from the fear of people. "The uncomfortable story about that one Thanksgiving dinner where my entire family fist-fought each other and moved out, lessons from the somewhat unethical Solomon Asch Conformity Experiment, the two toxic ways we're trapped by people-pleasing, when churches uphold a triumphalist self-affirming theology of 'hate-the-haters,' when a child gives you a cute drawing but it's terrible, and the only who's ever got your back for all time." 7-27-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_MW_Bible_06_-_Leah_7-27-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 4:27pm EST

Mary Magdalene: The First Most Least Qualified Christian

John 20. Series: Snapshots: Men & Women of the Bible. Part 4. Acceptance of the unfit misfit. "My 72 hours inside a mental institution, the two opposite and equally false judgments we make about everyone in the room, that moment when you imitate the guy you don't like with the crazy evil villain voice, if the Gospel of Jesus were re-written as an Epic Greek Myth with rippling muscles, and loving enough to find those cockroaches in your friend's bed." 7-6-14

Direct download: JS_Park_-_MW_Bible_04_-_Mary_M_7-6-14.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:23pm EST

How I Met My Savior: Zacchaeus and Jesus and The Labels That Squeeze Us

Luke 19:1-10. Series: Snapshots: Men & Women of the Bible. Part 3. Freedom from the labels that enslave us. "The Permanent Time-Stamped Label when you grow up in the same town long enough, your reaction when a five year old calls himself stupid, that time I got the embarrassing price check for hemorrhoid cream on the intercom, treating a prostitute like a lady for one night, eating pasta so good that it ruins all pasta, and pushing back the flurry of voices to grab God's one true calling for you." 6-8-14

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 5:33pm EST

Mary Vs. Martha: Distracted, Detached, and Itching For Intimacy

Luke 10:38-42. Series: Snapshots: Men & Women of the Bible. Part 2. Breaking through constant distractions. "When your brain goes off on a bizarre obscure thought-train, writing term papers before the existence of Wikipedia, four studies on the mind-warping effects of social media, the dehumanizing psychology behind flirtation, the secret competition of elaborate marriage proposals to get the most views on YouTube, and the simplicity of getting to know someone for who they are." 6-1-14

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 9:20pm EST

The Names of God, Part 5 - The Continually Creating God: A Life of Action Vs. Reaction

Romans 12:9-21. Series: The Names of God. Part 5. Creating a real life free of reactionary backlash. "The preacher-cliché story of my rescue dog Rosco, the back-and-forth craziness of internet comments and message boards, the uniqueness of Christian Creation account versus others, the plague of Room-Vampires who drain the life out of a room, that time I fought a bully  by yelling 'I love you,' and Seven Keys to living a Life of Action Vs. Reaction." 3-30-14

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:25pm EST

The Names of God, Part 4 - The Offensive Truth That We Need A Shepherd: Because We're Sheep

Psalm 23. Series: The Names of God. Part 4. The shepherd of our wants and needs. "The most polite argument from a British couple I've ever heard, praying for God to pull brain-wire to change your behavior, the brainwashing of Apple products, the tension between what I want and what I should want, why I'd rather have ice cream and hamburgers over good advice when I'm hurting, our two major reactions when life punches us in the gut, and the gospel of the NAVY Seals." 3-23-14

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 7:31pm EST

The Names of God, Part 3 - Kings, Kingdoms, and Servants: City Living Vs. Kingdom Wisdom

Matthew 5. Series: The Names of God, Part 3. The conflict between self-serving and self-sacrifice. "The secret second language when you overhear random conversations at Starbucks, how every movie and TV show about the zombie apocalypse reveals our human nature, Jesus's first political platform speech turned disaster, the Gospel according to Stephen Colbert, and the most unforgettable episode of Jerry Springer." 3-16-14

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:27pm EST

The Names of God, Part 2 - The Unexpected Friendship With The Maker of Everything

John 15. Series: The Names of God. Part 2. The unthinkable truth that God is your friend. "How to pick groomsmen for your wedding, when your friend sees you flip out and melt down and all your slobbery mess, bringing a big dude to a schoolyard fight to get your back, who Jesus would sit next to at church, how to destroy your enemies (spoiler: turn them into friends), that brave moment when you try to make a joke in a crowd and it falls dead, and good news for the awkward introverted shy kid in all of us." 3-9-14

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 3:01pm EST

The Names of God, Part 1 - The Prodigal Father And His Prodigal Kids

Luke 15. Series: The Names of God. Part 1. God our Father wants His kids to get along. "My dramatic shift from wild rebellious living to judgmental critical religion, how our God is an awesome dad in Heaven who enjoys His kids, that moment at 3am when you wonder how you ever got into this, the Only Two Types of People in the world divided right down the middle, and that time my dad pulled a Jedi and rescued my brother from drowning." 3-2-14

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 8:47pm EST

Mark, Part 9 - What God Should've Done Instead of the Cross

Mark 15. Series: Mark the Cosmic Journey. Part 9. The last 12 hours of Jesus's life. "That explosive ugly moment on the reality show when the celebrity flips out, that time Jesus did a Jedi force push on the Roman soldiers, committing adultery against God, the pasta that ruins all other pasta, and how God punches tragedy in the face." 12-15-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:12am EST

Mark, Part 8 - Compassion Is Cute Until It Costs You Everything

Mark 12:41-44. Series: Mark the Cosmic Journey. Part 8. Real love will cost you. "How children responded to the question: What is love?, the false Hollywood hormonal emotional pseudo-romance, when a baby congratulates his parents, how church is like a rough rock tumbler, when an entire Hillsong audience walks past a homeless guy, and how to give away $10,000." 12-1-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 1:39pm EST

Mark, Part 7 - God Is A God of Wrath, Justice, and Holiness: Because He Loves Us

Mark 12:1-12. Series: Mark, the Cosmic Journey. Part 7. The wrath of God and your last day on earth. "Where we'll be a million years from now, when you use a toilet brush to brush your teeth, that time I dodged a bullet to my stomach, the most hardcore quote by Francis Chan ever, and writing your will every day." 11-17-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 1:41pm EST

Mark, Part 6 - The God Who Is The Same In The Valley As He Is On The Mountaintop

Mark 8-9. Series: Mark, the Cosmic Journey. Part 6. For strugglers and dry seasons, there is grace. "All the crazy intense work that goes into the Wedding Day, the false spiritually high emotionalism of self-topping church, Jesus shoots lightning out his face, those Israelites who screamed the whole way through the Red Sea, and struggling faith-weaklings like me." 11-10-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 4:28pm EST

Mark, Part 5 - The Double-Minded Disciple: Some Days Simon, Some Days Peter

Mark 14. Series: Mark, the Cosmic Journey. Part 5. The life of Peter, and how a guy like him gives hope for us. "That late night regret-twitch before you go to sleep, managing the crazy person inside you that jumps out and messes up everything, the consistently inconsistent spiritual walk, Peter goes nuts and cuts a dude, how grace is like $20, and breaking the labels that you've been raised with." 11-3-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 4:41pm EST

Mark, Part 4 - Jesus Drops the Mic on Religion

Mark 7. Series: Mark, the Cosmic Journey. Part 4. Faith vs. Religion. "That one time my mama whipped me for redecorating everything with gray paint, the forbidden ice cream in the freezer, the crushing moral paradigm of Good Advice, when you tell cancer patients to just 'think positive,' and Straight A Jesus." 10-27-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 1:58pm EST

Mark, Part 3 - Bible Throwdown: Jesus Versus The Many-Headed Demon Called Legion

Mark 5:1-20. Series: Mark, The Cosmic Journey. Part 3. "When the Bible becomes a horror movie soap opera, the truth behind demon possession and spinning heads, Jesus versus Breaking Bad, that moment after an insane argument in your home when you have to start apologizing to closed doors, and that time I called all my ex-girlfriends to say I was wrong about everything." 10-13-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 3:00pm EST

Mark, Part 2 - The God Who Calls The Desperate Beatdown Busted Up Sinner

Mark 2:13-17. Series: Mark, The Cosmic Journey. Part 2. Jesus calls the not-good-enough. "The day I saw a pastor at the strip club, the life and times of Matthew Levi the hardcore playboy, that awkward moment at the club when the houselights turn on, Jesus versus the Pharisees in a Freestyle Battle Throwdown, and the first step in leaving behind the slavery of sin." 10-6-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:17pm EST

Mark, Part 1 - The God Who Walks In the Dirt of The Earth

Mark 1. Series: Mark, the Cosmic Journey. Part 1. Why we can believe, even amidst intense doubts. "That moment when you think all this church-faith-Bible stuff is just a crazy lie, what we would look like if our words were weapons, the day God punched the stars and ripped a hole in the sky, 17 reasons why I still like you, and long-distance phone calls with God." 9-29-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 5:45pm EST

Faith Struggle, Part 6 - Wrecked By Breathtaking Glory

John 3:25-30. Faith Struggle. Part 6. What it means to glorify God. "Sixth grade heartbreak by bullies and boyhood crushes, the art of story-topping and joke-killing, when athletes thank God in an interview, falling off the Grand Canyon, and Jesus at the end of the world." 9-22-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 11:02pm EST

Faith Struggle, Part 5 - Truly Living For Something Worth Truly Living For

John 4. Faith Struggle. Part 5. What you're really about. "That time my dad (a 9th degree black belt) put a sword to a dude's throat, black holes and wormholes and time travel, using self-pity as a permission slip for craziness, finally asking why we ever need to do homework, and a Spoken Word performance." 9-15-13

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Living_Water_9-15-13.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 5:18pm EST

Faith Struggle, Part 4 - The God Who Fits Everything

Romans 8:31-39. Faith Struggle. Part 4. The anxiety of getting approval and acceptance. "Waiting for 'likes' on your Facebook profile picture, the desperate race of 'Validate Me,' when YOLO used to be popular, that time I didn't get stabbed, deciding who gets thrown off a boat to save the others, and what to do when the whole world hates your guts." 9-1-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:46pm EST

Seattle Sermons, Part 6 - A Brutally Honest Surgical Self-Confrontation

2 Samuel 11-12. From PAPC in Seattle. The Joy of Following God. Part 6. Total honesty. "Finding out later to your dismay that you've been stabbed, when you don't really need prayer but just a nap and a snack, how King David is not so good at the math, Four Words That Could Save Your Life, how to cheat your taxes the Christian way, and finding your Nathan." 8-25-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 5:33pm EST

Seattle Sermons, Part 5 - The Raw Core Essential Bottom-Line Truth of Our Being

John 4. From PAPC in Seattle. The Joy of Following God. Part 5. What satisfies the burn in our heart. "How to respond when you're held at gunpoint, the romantic sitcom-tragedy of the Woman at the Well, the one lie that Self-Pity whispers in your ear, that infinite bottomless itch in our souls, and a Spoken Word performance." 8-23-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 10:25pm EST

Seattle Sermons, Part 4 - Writing Yourself Into God's Story

Ephesians 2:1-10. From PAPC in Seattle. The Joy of Following God. Part 4. Given life to give life. "Deciding the last thoughts on your deathbed, life lessons from hamburgers, The Greatest But of the Bible, how we grade funerals, and when other Christians think you're too Christian." 8-23-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 4:09pm EST

The Snake Story

The famous snake story. Preached at PAPC of Seattle. 8-23-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 7:06pm EST

Seattle Sermons, Part 3 - The Fiery Grace That Fuels Our Fight

Titus 2:11-14, 1 Timothy 1:12-17. From PAPC in Seattle. The Joy of Following God. Part 3. Grace is our safety and motivation. "Those Christian Horror Stories that scare you into religion, balancing the contradictory tension of God's grace and God's wrath, the first sermon I ever heard, and how an African tribe punishes their criminals with love." 8-23-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:57pm EST

Seattle Sermons, Part 2 - Trading Up What You Never Needed For What You Always Wanted

Hosea 6:1-3. From PAPC in Seattle. The Joy of Following God. Part 2. The joyful pain of obedience. "The mom who clotheslined her troublemaking kid in the neck, the one guy who always creeper-stalks girls, a generation raised on tacos, the death of porn addiction, and the Gospel according to your piano teacher." 8-22-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:50pm EST

Seattle Sermons, Part 1 - A Faith That Breathes God

John 15:9-17. From PAPC in Seattle. The Joy of Following God. Part 1. What our faith comes down to. "That weird feeling when you wonder if the church is what God really had in mind, the only time I ever caught a football, the toxic explosion when the church culture mixes with Asian culture, sharing those awkward embarrassing life-moments during a sleepover, the God who sneezes, and the dad you always wanted." 8-22-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:39pm EST

Faith Struggle, Part 3 - The Awkward Uncomfortable Gap Between Who You Are and Who You Want To Be

1 John 3:1-3, Romans 7. Series: Faith Struggle. Part 3. The anxiety of never being enough. "The first time you exercise in a long time (and the horrible pain the next morning), the one sin that no Christian would ever admit, God the Cosmic Cheerleader, being made of both dust and stars, actively seeking a rebuke gut-punch, and when God brags about you." 8-11-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:35am EST

Faith Struggle, Part 2 - The Impossible Love of God Meets Our Impossible Climb of Faith

Hosea 1-3. Series: Faith Struggle. Part 2. Motivated by grace or by guilt. "What church service looks like to an atheist outsider, why Jesus loves everyone except Bill, manipulative preacher tactics and guilt-trips, the prophet Hosea as a Korean Drama, how my first pastor uppercut my stubborn heart with grace, and how grace wrecks both the prideful and those in pain." 8-4-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 10:01pm EST

Faith Struggle, Part 1 - Loving The Unlovable Is Not Lovable

John 13:34. Series: Faith Struggle. Part 1. Love is easy until you try it. "Three Reasons why it's so hard to love people, when pastors get road rage, why God has commands for sex and money, Jesus breaking Judas's toe, and God ripping off the roof of your church." 7-28-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 11:33am EST

Your Life-Movie: The Singular Passion of God's Glorious Story

Philippians 3:12-16. From the Refuge FG Retreat. Going all in for God. "The power to edit your own life-movie, God's Script vs. the Devil's Script, wanting to slap an old friend who is still living like a kid, Four Obstacles That Stop Us From Total Passion For God, why the Christian life is not just beating sin, how to raise $20,000 to fight human trafficking, and sitting in a theater with Jesus watching a replay of your life." 7-10-13 (The first half of the audio is slightly distorted because of the rain outside.)

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:56pm EST

The Relentless, Reckless, Furious Glory of God

John 3:25-30. Preached at Refuge Full Gospel. To glorify God: the most important thing you can do with your life. "The one awkward guy who always kills the joke, that time in sixth grade I told the prettiest girl in school that I liked her, the alien's criticism of our TV shows, two sure-fire ways to glorify God, a spoken word performance, and that moment Jesus comes back with a sword out his face and his head on fire." 5-31-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 1:30am EST

A Living, Breathing, Pulsing, Dirt-Filled Faith

John 15:9-17. Preached in Huntsville, Alabama. Jesus is not only Savior, Lord, and King — but also our brother and friend. "The time my dad saved my brother from drowning on a tricycle, my one conclusion from visiting 14 churches in two months, how the homeless helped me love Jesus, that time Jesus busted a drug ring, and the greatest Christian I ever met." 5-12-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 1:24am EST

Cutting It Off: Your Brain On Porn

Quitting porn addiction. Part Four: Your Brain On Porn. The science of porn addiction, three things that porn does to your brain, rewiring your brain cells, a clip from the TED Conference, fighting a Taco Bell culture, and a response to an anonymous hate mail. 18 minutes. 4-21-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 8:37pm EST

Prioritizing Your Outrage - Overcoming Anger

Ephesians 4:26, Philippians 2. Preached at Full Gospel Church of Tampa FL. Victory over (and through) anger. "Yelling at old people in traffic, why Jesus flipped tables at a megachurch, the only difference between a superhero and supervillain, airlifting a spoiled kid to Somalia, how to instantly stop lust and any other emotion, and the heartbreaking story of Gina." 3-1-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 1:05pm EST

Cutting It Off: The How - Specific Steps To Quit Porn

Quitting porn addiction. Answering three anonymous questions about how to quit. "Throwing away your laptop, running out of the house, finding your specific calling, and real one-on-one discipleship." 12 minutes. 2-20-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 9:43pm EST

Cutting It Off: 7 Day Fast Challenge - And The Moment Right After You Fall

The Christian's first week in quitting porn addiction. The second after you fall to temptation, dealing with triggers, breaking cycles of guilt, and the self-aware confidence. 7 minutes. 2-9-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 10:04pm EST

Cutting It Off: Your First Week Off Porn

The Christian's first week in quitting porn addiction.  Expecting withdrawal symptoms, making porn-appointments, Christianese cover-ups, getting gritty with God, and the first step forward with a friend. 12 minutes. 2-8-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 9:47pm EST

Rejecting or Receiving That Advice (Preached at The Bridge Chicago)

Proverbs 4. A short seven minute sermon preached at The Bridge in Chicago, a ministry that serves ex-convicts, gang members, and those recovering from addiction. The topic: Listening to advice.  1-15-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:00am EST

Keeping Faith In Our Crazy Up-And-Down-Ness

1 Kings 18-19. Preached at Full Gospel of Tampa FL. Keeping faith in the craziness. "Looking in the mirror at your dang sexy self, the time I tried out for a Nickelodeon TV show, the Endless Audition we call life, feeling forced to say 'Praise God' to keep up the Christianese, the first step to quitting porn, the paranoia of wondering if that person 'likes you,' how to preach to yourself, and the best wedding kiss of all time." 1-18-13

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:00am EST

The Mountaintop: Encountering The Face-Melting Reality of Our Mighty God (Winter Retreat, 3 of 4)

Mark 8-9. Winter Retreat 2012. 3 of 4. Meeting God. "How to speak legit Chinese from fortune cookies, the bizarre weirdness of hanging out with Jesus, finding your prayer corner, how our faith is like a long-distance relationship with God, praying under a streetlight in the dark, and the unforgettable mountaintop experience that defines you." 12-27-12

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:56pm EST

But God: The Two Most Powerful Words In Human History (Winter Retreat, 1 of 4)

Ephesians 2:1-10. Winter Retreat 2012. 1 of 4. When you know there is more. "The Opening Skit: Two Line Vocabulary, the life story of our brother Daehan, the sudden existential panic-crisis at 3 am, having a God-moment in the strip club, trying to hook you up with Jesus, the time I threw a trashcan through the window, and building a bridge over the Niagara Falls with a kite and a string." 12-26-12

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:48pm EST

The Gracious Struggle: The Constant Feeling of Never Being Enough (Winter Retreat, 2 of 4)

Romans 7-8. Winter Retreat 2012. 2 of 4. Our lifelong struggle. "The secret struggle of every Christian, the pretentious preacher who sounds like a gym coach, imitating someone's voice to make them sound stupid, telling your 5 year old daughter to lose 15 lbs before you can love her, hoping in public that the mom disciplines her kids right on the spot, and overcoming sickness and asthma to win the black belt championship." 12-27-12

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:40pm EST

No Purpose? No Problem (Winter Retreat, 4 of 4)

Luke 19. Winter Retreat 2012. 4 of 4. Our great purpose. "The greatest need of the homeless (it's not what you think), how a buffet made me give $10,000, the crazy lady who hit my car and ran, and the moment you finally feel like a Christian." 12-28-12

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:25pm EST

1 John, Part 7 - Believe Bigger, Better, Brighter

1 John 5. Series: Real Life Christian. Part 7. When all is lost, it's not over. "The 7 Most Common Questions about the Christian life, the real Deus Ex Machina, why you shouldn't be afraid of roaches, putting the lion back in a lion, and Apostle John's final words." 12-16-12

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 4:34pm EST

1 John, Part 6 - The Infinite Wellspring He Gave To Give

1 John 4. Series: Real Life Christian. Part 6. He loves so we love. "The time I got in a fight with a homeless guy on the street, Three Obstacles to Loving People, how to treat your friend with a broken thumb, what to say when your husband or wife comes home late, and loving the weird and impossible." 11-25-12

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 9:12pm EST

1 John, Part 5 - Learning To Discern Its Worth At First

1 John 4:1-6. Series: Real Life Christian. Part 5. Discerning, then doing. "The Four Levels of human conversation, meeting an actual thoughtful person with real thoughts in their head, the day I discovered time travel, how William Wilberforce is like Peter Parker, when a town fought the Nazis and rescued more Jews than their own population, to be the one guy who actually speaks up for truth, and Peter with his red ruby slippers versus the Storm." 11-18-12

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:50pm EST

1 John, Part 4 - Obstinate Obstacles of Opposition

1 John 3. Series: Real Life Christian. Part 4. The Infinite Gap between ideal and reality. "When you exercise again and feel the Gap between what your body WANTS to do and what it CAN'T do, the constant awkward icky discomfort with yourself, sympathizing with Cain, the infamous dilemma of getting a million dollars with the condition of one person dying, and hearing those words, 'I'm proud of you.'" 11-11-12

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 1:19pm EST

1 John, Part 3 - This Worldly World of Worldliness

1 John 2:12-29. Series: Real Life Christian. Part 3. This world ain't it. "Thinking that high school is the last place in the world, the fleeting demands of college/career/marriage/kids/retirement, losing God by Monday at 3pm, the academic oppression of Asian-American Culture, what to do with words like swag, total freedom from what people think about you, and worshiping at the black church Memorial Brown on 22nd Ave." 10-28-12

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:57pm EST

1 John, Part 2 - Adopted Into Loyalty For Eternity

1 John 2:1-9. Series: Real Life Christian. Part 2. Why do we follow God's commands? "The time I almost beat a kid on the street with my baseball bat named Otis, Twelve Ways to Ruin Your Children, what we do with Old Testament commands, the embarrassment of failed Martial Arts demonstrations, and how to know God without knowing Him." 10-21-12

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 7:42pm EST

1 John, Part 1 - Forgiven Forward Towards Joy

1 John 1:1-2:2. Series: Real Life Christian. Part 1. What is a Christian? "The time I saw a pastor at the strip club, the Five Landmarks of an Authentic Christian, the hidden assumption when someone asks, 'You go to church?', throwing out your Rehearsed Cover Story, owning 100% of the 1% of your responsibility, and tell-all midnight conversations with best friends." 10-14-12

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:42am EST

The Frustrating, Messy, Uphill Climb of Faith (Preached At CCF)

Matthew 21. Preached at CCF in Gainesville, FL. How the Christian life really is. "The Stutter-Start-Stop Pattern of the Everyday Christian, the lazy preacher tactics of Guilt/Fear/Shame, how church can be like a bad relationship, when the preacher says penis, and actually hanging out with the Real Jesus." 9-14-12

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:37pm EST

A Dangerous, Reckless, Upside-Down Love - The Miami Revival

John 13. Miami Revival. To love like Jesus. "Sixth grade crushes and bullies, the revenge you plan when you're rich and famous, how to sell yourself short of God's Glory, Kanye West's amazing Twitter, breaking Judas' toe, a real life moment over coffee, and how rush hour makes you demon-possessed." 8-10-12

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 3:32pm EST

Lost, Found, and Free 3 - Conviction: The Inexorable Gravity of God – A Brand New Orbit

Mark 2, 10, John 8. Lake Yale Retreat 2012. Part 3 of 4. Why do we follow God? "When the preacher tells you not to be like that filthy pagan loser Bill, if Jesus and the Pharisees had a freestyle battle, if my future-wife gained 250 lbs, the Laotians questioning Jesus stilling the storm, and Before-Jesus/After-Jesus." 7-4-12

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 7:00pm EST

Lost, Found, and Free 1 - Collision: What You Really Be About?

John 4. Lake Yale Retreat 2012. Part 1 of 4. Our infinite thirst; the infinite God. "When my dad nearly killed a dude with a samurai sword, your three options when a gun is pulled on your head, the crying kid at VBS, and when a pug explodes from overeating." 7-2-12

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Lost, Found, and Free 2 - Conflict: The Good Guy Always Wins

Isaiah 53. Lake Yale Retreat 2012. Part 2 of 4. Freedom from ourselves. "The hopes and dreams of our brother Kyle, having your name in the 'Acknowledgements' of a book, ordering the steak with a side of lobster, the threats we yell out the car window, and biblical lessons from The Avengers." 7-3-12

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Lost, Found, and Free 4 - Calling: The Cost of Right-Side-Upping An Upside-Down World

Acts 2:42-47. Lake Yale Retreat 2012. Part 4 of 4. Honesty and compassion. "How the church is a bunch of jagged deformed rocks, why calling out hypocrites is hypocrisy, trying not to flinch when someone unloads a crazy confession, and brotherhood in the ghetto versus the church." 7-4-12

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Love Is Not An Option - Alabama Revival 4 of 4

John 13:34-35. Alabama Revival, Part 4. Love is a command. "Giving $400,000 and 40% of your life away, if I had to wash the feet of Judas, how God is seen through you, and how Jesus spoke brutally honest truth in love." 5-13-12

Direct download: JS_Park_-_AL_04_-_Love_Not_Option_5-13-12.mp3
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The Epic God-Sized Mission - Alabama Revival 3 of 4

Philippians 3:12-16. Alabama Revival, Part 3. Taking hold of Christ's calling, for real. "The opposite of sinning (it's not not-sinning), Apostle Paul's Rocky-comeback from a rock in the face, how to make the most of YOLO, and the American slaughter pen of Sweet Tomatoes." 5-12-12

Direct download: JS_Park_-_AL_03_-_God_Mission_5-12-12.mp3
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God Is Who God Is - Alabama Revival 2 of 4

Isaiah 40. Alabama Revival, Part 2. The overweight bigness of God. "The missing whale from Sea World, God doing a cannonball in the swimming pool, falling off a cliff in the Grand Canyon, and Over-Dramatizing Five Seconds of Your Life." 5-12-12

Direct download: JS_Park_-_AL_02_-_God_Is_5-12-12.mp3
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Who's The Main Character? - Alabama Revival 1 of 4

Ephesians 2:1-10. Alabama Revival, Part 1. God the hero saves us from us for Him. "Ordering Kung Pao chicken against your will, blinging out your dump truck with diamonds, trading in trinkets and toys for truth and Jesus, and life lessons from Burger Monger." 5-11-12

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Ramblings: Internal and External Realities - Growing Vs. Going

When we become a super-spiritual transformed church at the expense of God's Dirty Discipling Mission. The disconnect between Internal Prayer-Praise-Scripture and External Going-Making-Giving. Nine minutes. 3-6-12

How I'm giving away half my income.

For more: The Way Everlasting Blog

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Internal_External_Realities_3-6-12.mp3
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Genesis Part 7 - The Hard Part Is The Whole Thing (2 of 2)

Genesis 42-50. Series: God Is In Your Face. He's got this. Part 7. "Almost driving into a cop and the guy he’s chasing, taking things Out Of Context, preaching the whole Bible, the War Cry of Our Generation, and the EKG heart monitor of our lives." 2-26-12

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Genesis_7_-_Joseph_Two_2-26-12.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 1:27pm EST

Genesis Part 6 - The Hard Part Is The Whole Thing (1 of 2)

Gen. 37-41. Series: God Is In Your Face. Rising above it. Part 6. "How my friend broke someone's arm on the street, the size of the dog in the fight, the trials of Jeremy Lin, the passive Asian, the Cost of Compassion, and How To Donate $10,000." 2-19-12

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Genesis_6_-_Joseph_2-19-12.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:48pm EST

Genesis Part 5 - Stop Running For Your Life

Genesis 32-33. Series: God Is In Your Face. God never stops pursuing you. Part 5. "The amazing baby who can do no wrong, the awkward joke-killer, the Embarrassing Meltdown, and how celery and an Angry Birds doll shows us God’s painful grace." 2-12-12

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Genesis_5_-_Jacob_2-12-12.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 5:40pm EST

Genesis Part 4 - The Most Ridiculous Mission Ever

Genesis 6-9. Series: God Is In Your Face. His grace is His wrath. Part 4. "The nicer older brother who snaps and loses it, the Doomsday Clock, what's more scary than following God, growing up off the boat, and your Life Sentence."1-29-12

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Genesis_4_-_Noah_1-29-12.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:08pm EST

Genesis Part 3 - The Day The Earth Fell Down

Genesis 3. Series: God Is In Your Face. How it really is. Part 3. "Epic road rage dancing, being caught on YouTube in your worst moment, Trying Hard To Be Good versus Just-Good-Enough, and having the ear of God." 1-22-12

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Genesis_3_-_Sin_1-22-12.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 11:01pm EST

Genesis Part 2 - God Designed Design

Genesis 2:15. Series: God Is In Your Face. We are on mission for Christ. Part 2. "The boring Pre-Life before your (so-called) exciting Real Life, our specifically designed framework, the Gospel Package, and old school Nintendo games." 1-15-12

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Genesis_2_-_Design_1-15-12.mp3
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Genesis Part 1 - You Are God's Idea

Genesis 1:26-27. Series: God Is In Your Face. You are His image. Part 1. "The Epic Beginning of Human History, the Burden to Love God's Ideas, trying to imagine your teacher having a private life, waking up from the bad dream of life, and our True Selves." 1-8-12

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Genesis_1_-_Gods_Idea_1-8-12.mp3
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God Is The Point of Everything 3 - The Boss Who Loves Us

Romans 8. Dayspring Winter Retreat. Absolute love and authority. 3 of 4."The bizarre world of X-Factor, the creepy girl who idolized me, in the passenger seat of life, and what it’s like to be the worst preacher in the history of preaching." Dec. 20, 2011

Direct download: JS_Park_-_WR_2011_-_3_of_4_12-20-11.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 5:08pm EST

God Is The Point of Everything 4 - To Struggle Joyfully

1 Kings 2:1-4. Dayspring Winter Retreat. Joy and pain with God. 4 of 4. "The wonderfully weird life of David, the secret sinful lives of our Bible heroes, the Starfox barrel roll, how sin makes you stupid, and the abusive love of parents." Dec. 21, 2011

Direct download: JS_Park_-_WR_2011_-_4_of_4_12-21-11.mp3
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God Is The Point of Everything 1 - God Is The Point

Isaiah 55. Dayspring Winter Retreat. Simply knowing and embracing God. 1 of 4. "Saving the four year old child in traffic, Psychological-Advantage-Theology, planking for God, and Jacob the bass guitar player." Dec. 19 2011

Direct download: JS_Park_-_WR_2011_-_1_of_4_12-19-11.mp3
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God Is The Point of Everything 2 - Me, The Point of Everything

Phil 2:1-18. Dayspring Winter Retreat. The lies we buy. 2 of 4. "The most opportunistic generation for selfishness, having Chick-Fil-A withdrawal, and a dance floor where everybody's doing the robot by themselves." Dec. 20, 2011

Direct download: JS_Park_-_WR_2011_-_2_of_4_12-20-11.mp3
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Ramblings: The Reformed, Religious, and Rebellious

The repercussions of the Reformed movement, hating on the religious, and why I was called a lying witch abortionist. Eight minutes. September 29th, 2011.

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Category:Christianity -- posted at: 1:55pm EST

Ramblings: Words Versus The Music

Having a crisis of faith, and why it's a good thing. Eight minutes of rambling. September 23rd, 2011

Direct download: JS_Park_-_The_Words_and_Music_9-23-11.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:33pm EST

The Blueprint - Who God Says I Am

1 Samuel 17. Only God gets to say who I am. Preached at the iPraise Revival. "Learning Chinese from fortune cookies, the cosmic metanarrative of Jersey Shore, how a man loves a woman, and The Dream Of Jesus Saving The World." June 17th, 2011.

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Who_God_Says_I_Am_6-17-11.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 10:33am EST

Beatitudes - The Upside Down Life: You Are The Difference

Matt. 5. Series: The Upside Down Life. To be salt and light. 4 of 4."The Russian ex-government agent Mr. Z, random conversations at Starbucks, the Four Salt-Stoppers, and seeing in Pitch Black." May 6th, 2011.

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Beatitudes_Four_5-6-11.mp3
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Beatitudes - The Upside Down Life: To Bring A Sword of Peace

Matt. 5. Series: Upside-Down Life. God calls us to restore the broken. 3 of 4. "Almost crashing into a texting driver while texting, the perfect tapestry of reality woven in harmony, the town that spoke sign language, and when to expect haters." April 29th, 2011

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Beatitudes_Three_4-29-11.mp3
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Raising Lazarus - A View of Heaven and Hell

John 11. Guest speaking at King's Avenue Church. On Heaven and Hell. "Heaven: six pack abs, PS3, the perfect boyfriend, looking better than the girl you can’t stand. Hell: bad skin, bad hair, unpopularity, and a couple extra lbs. Jesus says no." Apr 21, 2011.

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Lazarus_Heaven_Hell_4-21-11.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 11:25pm EST

Beatitudes - The Upside Down Life: Spiritual Junk Food Vs Spiritual Truth

Matthew 5:5-7. Series: The Upside Down Life. How to hunger for God's righteousness. 2 of 4. "When your friend tries to get you into his favorite band, the personal trainer who looks like Donkey Kong, and how to get fat on God’s Word." April 15th, 2011.

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Beatitudes_Two_4-15-11.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 4:28pm EST

How To Righteously Rebuke, Part Three

Bite-sized wisdom in less than ten minutes. The rebuke, a difficult biblical mandate that no one likes to do but is necessary. How to righteously rebuke: four stories of how it went down. Some failures and victories. April 14th, 2011.

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Rebuke_Part_Three_4-14-11.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:00pm EST

Beatitudes - The Upside Down Life: Welcome The King

Matthew 5:1-5. Series: The Upside Down Life. Daily choose the City of Man or Kingdom of God. 1 of 4. "Peter’s samurai katana, Jesus’ first political campaign speech, and the Beatitudes according to Forrest Gump." April 8th, 2011.

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Beatitudes_One_4-8-11.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:00pm EST

How To Righteously Rebuke, Part Two

Bite-sized wisdom in eight minutes. The rebuke, a difficult biblical mandate that no one likes to do but is necessary. How to righteously rebuke: the Holy Spirit's role, how to handle a harsh reaction, and what to do if you're graciously received. April 6th, 2011.

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Rebuke_Part_Two_4-6-11.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 1:28pm EST

How To Righteously Rebuke, Part One

Bite-sized wisdom, less than ten minutes long.  The rebuke, a difficult biblical mandate that no one likes to do but is necessary. How to righteously rebuke: the motives, approach, goal, and fall-out. March 30th, 2011.

Direct download: JS_Park_-_How_To_Righteously_Rebuke.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 2:53pm EST

The Twelve - Judas The Tragic Traitor

John 12. Series: The Twelve Who Knew Him. Jesus' ministry ends, and begins. 5 of 5. "Credit card felony for two large pizzas, when TV good guys become bad guys into good guys again, and the total senseless chaos of the cross." March 13th, 2011.

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Judas_3-13-11.mp3
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The Twelve - Matthew and Thomas, Taxes and Doubts

Mark 2. Series: The Twelve Who Knew Him. Jesus casts out a vision for more. 4 of 5. "Jesus catching a hit man’s bullets, when 100 people try to lead the dance on a stage, and telling a little baby to get a job." March 6th, 2011.

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Matthew_and_Thomas_3-6-11.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 5:13pm EST

The Twelve - Philip and Nathanael, Pride and Prejudice

John 1, 6. Series: The Twelve Who Knew Him. The over-thinker and the racist; how Jesus broke them. 3 of 5. "Being the smartest one on a planet of idiots, the one who takes forever to order at a restaurant, and the worst philosophy class ever." Feb 27, 2011

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Philip_Nathanael_2-27-11.mp3
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The Twelve - James and John, Thunder and Lightning

Luke 9. Series: The Twelve Who Knew Him. Love and truth are sacrifice at the price of the cross. 2 of 5. "How to stop a child from beating up his little brother, the Evil Love over a cute little baby, and the hard truth from 'I Am Legend.'" Feb 20th 2011.

Direct download: JS_Park_-_James_John_2-20-11.mp3
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The Twelve - Peter the Rockstar and Andrew the Background Guy

Luke 5. Series: The Twelve Who Knew Him. God works in the craziest and the quietest of us. 1 of 5. "A slice of world history around the time of Jesus, the Five Fails of Peter, and the unstoppable force of a power duo." February 13th, 2011.

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Peter_Andrew_2-13-11.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 7:00am EST

Revive: Discipline + Grace = God

Hosea 6:1-3. Revival is empowered by the right picture of God. "Warning labels on toilet brushes, the Greatest Itch In Human History, the unofficial cop, and standing before God at the end of time." November 26th, 2010.

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Revive_11-26-10.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:00am EST

Break Your Idols Or They Will Break You (The Sequel)

1 Kings 11. By God's power can break free of idols. Preached at Centerpoint Christian Fellowship (CCF) of Gainesville, FL. "A woman's role in the kitchen, shaking my milkshake, and exchanging God for a chicken leg." November 19th, 2010.

Direct download: JS_Park_-_Break_Your_Idols_11-19-10.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 6:00am EST

The Gym of Christ (Guest Speaker Ross Henderson)

1 Corinthians 12. Guest Speaker Ross Henderson. We are the united body of Christ. "Relevant last words, curling 400 lbs, and the value of suffering together." November 26th, 2010.

Direct download: JS_Park_-_The_Gym_of_Christ_Ross_11-26-10.mp3
Category:Christianity -- posted at: 12:00pm EST

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Rob Connelly has been a member of New Light Church for over five years.  He is an incredibly gifted graphic artist who has made numerous posters and promotions for our ministry, as well as for small and big businesses.  He heads our drama team and is an all around awesome brother in Christ.

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